I don’t even feel like writing out a long ass post. Jeffrey and I broke up and he went back to his ex. He isn’t coming back. That’s just that. I’m pretty much an empty shell at this point. I feel nothing but empty, hollow, hurt, broken.. yeah. Whatever.
Birthday boy. I love you with all my heart. You are the only boy who has the key to my heart and always will. Your smile, the things you say, seeing you having fun, it all makes me smile, makes me happy. You’re growing up so fast on me. You gotta slow down baby boy. You can’t be grown yet, child.
Hey there, you’re beautiful and strong. You don’t believe it now. But in time, you’ll see. One day, you’ll be able to look in a mirror and smile. You’ll be confident. You’ll have faith. All in good time.
I’ve been having a pretty rough time getting through lately. I’m battling depression and anxiety, and I’ve gotta say, it feels like its winning these days. I never knew something emotional could feel so intense and real, but it does. It’s a terrifying feeling.
Jeffrey and I are non stop fighting and its only making my own issues worse.
I’m thinking about moving out of my dads and in with a family friend of some sort, or whatever she’s considered. My parents have both moved on with their own lives and i just feel like a burden on them. My life has fallen apart and I have fallen apart. And I need to get back up and get myself together. I can’t do that unless I make a change. And I’m so scared of change. But I’m also so tired of being scared of everything.
I want to be happy, I don’t remember that feeling. I’m gonna get there. I am.
